Stephanie Jeck

COMING HOME

I've been wandering through far off places Trying hard to drown the echoes of these years 
I've been searching high and low to find new faces 
That could replace the pain and dry up all these tears 

Only to find I'm still alone 
With nothing left to call my own 
This beat up heart and weary bones 

I'm coming home 
Coming home 

There was so much hurt and I couldn't take it 
So many things I couldn't bring myself to say 
Years of hollow words and I couldn't shake it 
I had to get out couldn't see another way 

So I went out there on my own 
Feeling afraid and all alone 
This beat up heart and weary bones 

And oh the lies I've told to fool myself 
Into thinking I could be somebody else 
Out on this open road I finally fell 

Oh but I found I'm not alone 
Somehow you still love me as your own 
This beat up heart and weary bones

SAINTS AND SINNERS

Saints and sinners, all the same 
Lifted high, broken, lame 
We can't play another's game 
Saints and sinners, all the same 

Saints and sinners, we are all 
Striving just to hear a call 
Moving forward though we fall 
Saints and sinners, we are all 

Saints and sinners, we are one 
Someone's daughter, someone's son 
Lay down your fear, lay down your gun 
Saints and sinners, we are one

WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS

She's trying hard to keep that smile 
To keep her image up and it's worked for awhile 
Things seem okay but they're not quite 
She keeps it hidden well within the light 

But when the moon begins to rise 
And darkness closes in 
Something changes in her eyes 
She just can't win 

When the night falls nothing stays the same 
When the night calls she starts placing blame 
Things begin to come undone
With the setting of the sun 
She doubts the truth in everything 
In everyone 
When the night falls 

So many times she's been so brave 
She's come so close to stepping out of what she's made 
You'd never know the guilt she's seen 
She keeps it hidden well behind the scene 
But when the stars begin to dress 
The sky with sparkling light 
She turns her thoughts to obsess 
She just can't fight 

These vast and empty shadows 
The silence thundering loud 
No she can't escape it now 

When the night falls 
When the night falls

RUNNING

Spent so many years playing dumb 
Shed so many tears now I'm numb 
Where'd all this fighting come from 

Running running 
Running away from you 

I'm not sure if I should be here 
I'm so crippled by all my fear 
Will someone please make all this clear 

Haunted by the ways I've lied and letting go is suicide 
But I know I've got to try cause I no longer want to hide 

Running running 
Running straight to you

GONE

If I could hold you in my arms I'd be alright 
Would you keep me safe from harm just for tonight 
Why must you hurry on 
Before I turn around you're gone 

Day after day you come to me 
Can't tell if it's real or just a dream 
Line after line I find that I hope to keep you here 
I can't keep living out of fear 
Night after night you pull me in 
But all I can do is remember when 
Fight after fight you're right cause I know this is the last 
I can't keep living in the past 

 And so I watch you fade 
Right before my eyes 
I thought that what we made 
Could keep you by my side 
But I can't make you stay 
You'll only slip away 
There's nothing I can do 
Nothing I can say 

You're gone gone gone 
Won’t you tell me what to say to make you stay

MEMORIES

So many things I had forgotten 
So many thoughts I'd left behind 
The way your blue eyes filled with laughter 
How you could almost read my mind 

And the years they've been kind to us 
Life and new love crowded in 
But unpacking all these layers 
I'm right back where we began 

These faded memories are coming to life 
These jaded memories are poisoning my mind 
Haunting my dreams clouding my view 
These faded memories 
Memories of you 

And now I can't keep moving forward 
I'm stuck reliving times gone by 
Days spent longing just to hold you 
Nights spent wanting you by my side 

And time it moved so quickly 
What we had it turned to rust 
Now I'm sorting through these ashes 
And what I find I can't seem to trust 

As I dream myself to sleep the ghost of what has been 
Has conquered far too deep a wolf in velvet skin

STEAL AWAY

Steal away, you and me 
For a day or maybe three 
We'll pack our bags and hit the road 
No need to ask me where we'll go 
It doesn't matter much to me 
Just as long as you agree 
To steal away 

This old world can't stop dragging us down 
And all these cares with all their snares 
They keep our feet stuck to the ground 
But It's not too late 
Let's make them wait 
And steal away 

We'll leave our worries far behind 
No need to hurry back this time 
And cause I know they'll track us down 
We'll only go where we can't be found 
Let's pretend there’s only two 
You and me, nothing to do 
But steal away 

Life will still go on and on 
Even when we're dead and gone 
So let's not waste a single dime 
Of our precious, precious time

TAKE MY HAND

We live in a world  
Where the dead don't rise 
We've adopted rules  
Like an eye for an eye  
We are beaten down  
By hatred and lies  
We can't see a way out  
No matter how hard we try  

How can we begin to be 
The change we want to see  

Do you hope for justice  
Do you hope for peace  
Do you hope for healing in this land 
Do you long for mercy  
Do you long for love  
If your heart is as mine, take my hand  

We live in a world  
Where we're taught to choose sides 
We can't always agree  
But we can always abide  
We can take off the masks 
That cause us to hide  
And tear down the walls 
That are built to divide  

Come on let's begin to be 
The change we want to see  

Can we talk and bridge the gaps  
We've made from fear  
Can we stop and listen to more  
Than what we hear  
Can we walk side by side when it all seems 
Too much to bear  
Now is the time  
Will we be the ones who dare  

Will you stand for justice  
Will you work for peace  
Will you strive for healing in this land
Will you live with mercy  
Will you fight with love  
If your heart is as mine, take my hand

DOWN TO THE WATER

I went down to the water just like so many times before  
Content to lie on the edge and let the waves cool me as they came ashore But it was different this time  
Maybe I was different this time  

And I wanted nothing nothing more than to get in So I slowly, carefully waded out and I began to swim Cause it was different this time  
Maybe I was different this time  

And the waters covered me  
And the sun wrapped its warmth around me And I began to sink farther and farther down All the pain and sorrow melted away  
And the joy and gladness melted away  
But I was not afraid  

I came up from the water I was soaked I was drenched to the bone but didn't care  
And I gently, lightly floated on and let the wind and the waves take me where they dared Cause it was different this time  
Yeah I was different this time  

And the waters covered me  
And the sun wrapped its warmth around me And I began to swim farther and farther out All the pain and sorrow I felt more nearly And the joy and gladness I felt more dearly And I could finally breathe  

I went down to the water

FROM THE RUBBLE

There was a time when all was right 
And you were all I knew 
All was kind, all was good, 
All was innocence 
My heart was pure 

Then came a time when all was wrong 
And you were all I knew 
All was fear, all was chaos, 
And confusion 
My heart was broken 

And the distance between was too wide 
Too wide, too wide 
How can I get back to the other side 
It's too wide, too wide 
And now everything that I believe 
And everything that I doubt 

It all came tumbling down and in the rubble 
I lost what I thought that I found 

Then came a time when all was truth 
And you were all I knew 
All was real, all was beauty, and mystery 
My heart was full 

Yeah the distance between was too wide 
Too wide, too wide 
So I just kept on with nothing to hide 
I didn't hide, I couldn't hide 
Because everything that I believe 
And everything that I doubt 

It all came tumbling down but from the rubble 
New life is springing up in this ground